Back to it

I've been slipping deeper and deeper. I went all out the last few days and I need to reset. I'm hoping by posting here that my brain will feel some sort of accountability. I take no joy in watching porn anymore, it just drains me. It feels like I wake up every day helpless to change. I dread the day, knowing at some point temptation will jump on me like an enormous wave. When will I have the courage to quit? I pray I don't get to some sort of breaking point that forces the issue that would most likely be unbearable and damaging.

Please God, help me overcome where I don't have the strength. God, show me life without porn is more real, honest, and joyful. Amen.