I need to heal

What are those scars you want to heal from, have been healing from, still healing from... For me it's this deep seated anger that sprouted 'out-of-nowhere' a couple of years back and now it's slowly grown into simmering rage. It fucking scares me. And it's not that I don't constantly address it but ushaifanya kitu then a while later you're like, why did I even do that? Idk. I think it's possible that some things don't go away... Maybe you just ought to learn to manage them batter.