Embracing the evil in me

People are mad at me but hiyo haifiki the level of sadness I'm feeling. Hamtaelewa what it means to sire a child when all time unaambiwa uko na low sperms. Hamtaelewa what it means kuuliwa mtoto mwenye ulikuwa ushaanza kuset aside child benefits for them. Hamtaelewa what it means kuplan a future for your wife and child so that wasi suffer even if you die.

Mwanamme wakimtrap na mimba utaskia ati just take responsibility and raise the child. Leave the woman but usitupe mtoto wako. What is different in this case that nareceive a lot of backlash? ati juu mimi ni mwanamume? If it was a woman who trapped me with the child, most of you mngesema it is normal. Zoea hiyo. And a few people will sympathise with me. Kuna so many women who trap men by not taking p2 or akikudanganya ati ako under contraception. But hawatusiwi like me.

Sijabanduka bado from Nakuru. Nimekunywa most part of the night, and one thought keeps crossing my mind. I'm going to divorce her. I can't be with someone who killed my child. Hata if i trapped her and i was on the wrong. Naenda kumwambia the whole truth and divorce her. Or niendele na hii sarakasi ya ndoa until i get my chunk of meat.Nimekuwa nikifikiria niende ukambani so that asiwahi zaa tena in this life, but siko ready to embrace that part of me. Najua I'm evil but not that evil kufanya mtoto wa wenyewe barren. I hope I get someone who will be willing to sire kids with me.