After 18 years being a faithful christian , today i lost my faith in Jesus christ

I am now 31 years of age (M) .. i started my spiritual journey at 12years old .. i used to be faithful to the Catholic Church (attending daily mass / praying the rosary /reading the Bible) .. but amidst all of this , i always felt uneasiness , this bad feeling grew throughout the years till now , i reached the point when i can't take it anymore .. it's like i reached a dead-end in my spiritual life .. so i just decided to end everything related to Jesus and the Church .. and start anew .. with the hope to save my life ..